gah!!!

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I hate it when life gets tough!!

My heart hurts. This had been a reoccuring thing this last few months. I don't understand whats going on really. I feel like a child who can't pick between the chocolate popcicle or the banana in the local corner store. Mom's getting fustrated and wants to go...it's just a popcicle for goodness sakes. The only difference between this senario and my life, is that my choice has more value and weight then that of a banana popcicle. My mind is boggled with thoughts of my future, my confidence, knowing who I am, what I want, my purpose...sounds like most people my age. I'm no more special then the rest of them. I just cannot seem to deal as well as most. I am afraid to make a move. I swear I am going to end up being a bum on the street. I acually felt sad when I saw the clip of failure to lanch....while everyone in the room was laughing.... i was thinking " there's me in five years if i don't figure things out and stop being such a fuzz ball!"

I'm honestly too confuzzled to write.