struggling artist

So.... I have been told that a good way to get stuff of your chest is to journal. So this is my first one of hopefully many to come...if I keep this up. Most of the time I express myself through my music. It's the greatest escape for me and the deepest part of me. It doesn't always come easy, but when it does, it flows and takes no time at all for my feelings to become words and melodies on a page. Right now i'm in the middle of a dry spell it seem, allthought my emotional state is at an all time high. I'm wondering if at any moment, the heartache, pain, love and joy with come forth?... I hope so, I am desprate for the feeling. It's like the line from anna nalick ...." 2 am and i'm still awake writing a song, if i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to...". all this stuff bottled up inside me need to come out....it is threatening to ones life. I am allmost scared that I have lost that ability to write music when you know that there is so much inside, but it just won't come out.

Today i had cannaloni for lunch:)......it was good.....thats all for now.